Back hurting :(

Been a few weeks since I last wrote...
But since then Ive working my ass off, literally. Last week I worked too hard and hurt my back. And it's still stiff and hurting. So I'm afraid I have to call in sick any day now. I'm going to a physiotherapist on Thursday, but I think I need a naprapath and then a week resting. I have done a few other tasks at work that not involves heavy lifting. But yesterday I tried the ordinary tasks again and it didn't work at all. Quite depressed over this 'cause I wanna prove that I can do my work well, now when I'm on probation until May.
I hate this so much. And that's not the only thing that makes me sad. Too many small things that are building up inside of me and I'm close to tears and I'm angry all the time recently. And my co-workers are starting to notice and I can't control my feelings right now.
I just want a break from my life.
Get away....to England! That would be awesome :) But not by my self....

I got two rights! :D

Yes that's right! I got TWO easy questions yesterday at the show "Vem vet mest?" and I'm so proud! :D Though I embarrassed myself a little I'm happy with the outcome. (Maybe not when I'm watching it on Tv later on in march when it airs....)
But everything were twice the better than last time. My answers, the food, my follow participants, the people who took care of us, my look :P my pounding heart did not flip out too much :P So, yeah, I'm satisfied with the outcome with my participation this time :D

It was dancing times last night with the girls as well. We went to the club Pustervik at Järntorget. Unfortunately I didn't like the music much. I got bored when it was the same beat over and over again. And the base was way to high and just hurt my ears.
And I hate disgusting guys on the dance floor! Like always they're trying it on and I don't want to, I'm out with my girls and don't want to dance with you! GET THE MASSAGE when I'm turning my back and walking away...don't follow! *sigh*
Lucky my friends can crack a smile on me otherwise the night had been too doll :P

First week in 2011

Hope you all had a great New Year and that the first week have been good too. Did you made some good New Year Resolution?
Mine was to seek adventures so I say "Yes" to everything that comes up :P (Maybe not the best idea in the long run....)

My first week of the year have been busy. I've worked 6 days (and some more) and went to see Rebecca & Fiona in the middle of the week. They were on the club Yaki-Da here in Gothenburg and they were so amazing that I expected. Everything they choose to play sounds good. And it's obvious they're popular 'cause I've never seen a more crowded and sweaty dance-floor. The floor literally was moving ten cm up and down and I thought that it would cave in or something :P
They played their new song as well and I already love it!




And on Wednesday morning they rang me from SVT for the third time and asked me to be in the show "Vem vet mest" again. :P And like I said, I say yes to everything for the moment so this Saturday (tomorrow) I will try to answer correctly at some questions. Why did I say yes?? I will probably embarrass myself again! But okey, there's free food so that's good :P
Please, I ask for only one easy question like last time then I'm happy.
I hope I've have some luck in games 'cause love don't go well for the moment....so I don't think it's too much to ask for....ONE EASY QUESTION!

"Why don't you see
That I could save you
Let me save you"

Summary of 2010

I thought I would do a summary of my 2010 but the more I think about the more boring it sounds. I've done nothing than worked or been unemployed. I mean the year have been good to me because me and my family are healthy and that's so important to me. But I haven't experienced so much which I hoped for. Let's face it; I have to break my pattern and be a bit more adventurous. That's my New Year Resolution, Seek adventures.

But I will do a list of my favorites moments of 2010 even though I think it was quite a boring year ;-)

# The Glasgow trip in January with almost the whole gang.

#My Tv appearance in "Vem vet mest?", (Though it was pretty embracing)
(Look at that pic of me! So glad that I can laugh at myself, haha)

#The birth of Andrea and Dennis daughter Matilda
#I bought myself a car, which have been and is such a freedom for me.

# Green Day at Ullevi (because they can get a crowd going!)


So that's it, really...
Not a very exciting year, but I hope I'll find some adventures in 2011.
I'm happy to get some suggestions ;-)

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! (even everyone I don't know ;-))

Darren Criss!

Darren Criss is a singer/songwriter who I've fallen for. I discovered him this summer when I come across "A very potter musical" on youtube. He played Harry and after some own youtube vids with covers he managed to get a part on Glee during this autumn as the character Blaine.
My favorites songs he has done are "Not alone" and "Sami" which goes straight into my heart....especially now....

"I’ve seen her face
I’ve heard her name
I’ve lost my place and she’s to blame

I can’t stand it
When I’m staring in her eyes
And she’s not looking back
It’s not a big surprise

I’ve heard music,
I’ve heard noise
I wish she could hear her voice
The way that I do
When I go to sleep at night
And dream my life away
But she’s gone when I awake

Sami, Sami
Why can’t you see
What you’re doing to me?

The way her hair falls in her eyes
Makes me wonder
If she’ll ever see through my disguise
And I’m under her spell
Everything is falling
But I don’t know where to land
She just knows where she is
But she don’t know who I am

Sami, Sami
Why can’t you see
What you’re doing to me?

I see you singing on that stage
You look just like an angel
And all I do is pray
And maybe someday
You’ll hear my song
And understand that all along
There’s something more that I’ve been trying to say
When I say

Sami, Sami
Why can’t you see
What you’re doing to me?"

http://open.spotify.com/track/2NqxpB1gYmKr2yxztaxYJL

Christmas 2010

Julafton spenderades som alltid hos kära faster och resten av släkten på pappas sida plus några till. Vi var många i år, hela 16 st varav Amanda var det enda barnet. Hur kul som helst när hennes pappa (min kusin) klär ut sig till tomten och hon ser att det han. Vilka blickar hon kan ge när tomten frågar "om Amanda kan hjälpa gamla tomten med dom tunga paketen".
Min familj tycker tydligen jag inte hittar tillräckligt bra så jag fick en GPS till bilen. Den ska väl komma till använding :)

Juldagen tillbringades med underbara vänner med häng först hos Malin och sen trotsade vi kylan och mina lår fick ta stryk. Fick inte komma in på Flamingo så vi vandra vidare till Vasa och Jazzhuset. Låren skrek efter värme.
Vi kom fram och in och sen var det bara att köpa dricka och dansa sig varm på dansgolvet.

(Jag och fina Sarah som vet hur man rör sig på dansgolvet :))

Annorlunda människor än vad jag är van vid vilket var skönt. Bra musik också, vilket fick kroppen att släppa loss och släppa lite hämningar. Dansade bort mina bekymmer för stunden igår. Men sen kom man hem där fyra väggar stänger in mig å mina tankar. Hatar och älskar dessa väggar som man har. Men vill väl helst byta ut dom.
La mitt tunga huvud på kudden som trots allt fortfarande var mjuk när allt annat känns hårt nu.
Somna in å vaknar bedövat till en ny dag å hoppas den känslan håller i sig ett tag.

Musik lindrar. Rekommenderar Duffys senaste album ”Endlessly”.

Och idag på Annandagen blir det Julafton nr 2 med småkusinerna. :D

Mini Christmas :)

The day before yesterday (or förrgår like we say in swedish :P) Me and most of my friends had a Mini Christmas at Sarahs and Bamses place and it was perfect!
There were so much buns, gingerbread, mulled wine, sweets and rice pudding that we couldn't eat it all :P

We played, in lack of a better translation, The Gift Game. We all bought some presents and laid them in a pile and then we throw dices and if you got a 1 or a 6 you could choose a present. When the pile where out we opened them and then the war began!
Then we throw the dices again, this time on a certain time, and if you got the right numbers you could "steal" the presents from each other. :D I can say that when the clock rang about half shouted "Yes" and the other half "No" :P

Then we had competition who could decorate the best gingerbread house;-)